I Don’t Have To Mask With Music

As an autistic person, I often face situations where I feel I am misunderstood.

This is why I sometimes feel that music is the only thing that truly understands me. With music, I am able to seek the emotional understanding I am seeking for.

When I am down, I would listen to Edward Elgar's Cello Concerto on repeat, following every note as the music went along as if my heart depended on it. I would feel like I understood every note, every word and every emotion in the piece.

The feeling of "being understood" by music is also what drove me to start songwriting and composing.

There is a deep feeling of fulfilment and connection that washes over me when a melody I hear that has been playing over and over again in my mind is finally turned to a piece of music.

Many times when I am heartbroken, I would turn to songwriting and spend hours listening back to the song I wrote, and finally feeling understood.

#Aspie, #Neurodivergent, #Vulnerable